allyson joy

go figure, the layout i despise {maybe the very most}, was on top of my blog for who knows how many days,,, but I'm not gonna dwell on it. i can't. i won't. hi. im here, and YES, i am alive. thank you to those of you that looked for me, and even sent emails wondering if i was okay. i really, REALLY appreciate it. thank YOU. i know i never said it out loud, but i did tell myself i would blog everyday for a whole year. and secretly, you counted on it too. well, crap, i got so close. can i have a little credit for the 261 days i made it?? i missed a few days, and i gotta be honest, it felt alright. so now, yeah, im still gonna blog like crazy, totally not going anywhere, i need you too desperately. but now, since i suck and didn't make my own personal cut, ill be blogging as i feel. sometimes, i just didnt feel like blogging, but i did, because i promised i would. well, promises will be broken, bridges will burn and life will go on. im pretty sure you are already over it and ready to move on with me,,, so let's get on with it,,, my life about six weeks ago changed like crazy, crazy,,, i would come, go, stay, leave, play, relax, dream, create,,, anything. whatevers me and my kiddos felt like doing that day. then, it started,,, soccer, tap, ballet, soccer *team* mom, room mama, oh yeah, and lets not forget the most important - school!!!

ive learned -

*moments like this are hard to explain, they feel so good.

*mousie mousie is even more important to me than i thought {and i thought that she was really important to begin with}.

*im having a hard time being a crutch for others, as im struggling with standing on my own two feet at the moment as it is,,,

*watching your four year old dude score a goal at his soccer game might be the greatest feeling in the whole wide world {i cried}

*that my friends are rocks. and now i get it, because they are there when you hit them, rock bottom. they are like little pieces of padding waiting to soften your blow, to make it more cozy.

*i live ever so close to americas finest city, and i have taken it for granted. big time.

*that a simple day trip with an amazing girlfriend can help you feel so happy and cozy on the inside

*that i, too, am guilty of being wrapped up in random, really not so important *things* like the internet,, well, make that *a thing*

*and yes, when all else fails, i do recommend you to listen to lady gaga ~ *just dance*

wanna hear something else?? this hot chick and i are picking our design team tonight!!! were so excited!!! cant wait!!
thank you, for being my friend.

love you, love ally*son joy